Society

Some Faith in Humanity has been Restored ! 

Seriously whats wrong with you people.  Why should you care if your best friend, or friend is gay ? 

Worst of, why should you bother about A friggin stranger whom you dont even know being gay ? Regardless if he likes guys or she likes girls. What wrong with it?

Do they bother you ? Its not like, just because they are gay, they are " into you" 

This guy. He's an inspiration. 

He stands up for what he wants . For what he believes in. And look where it has brought him.

He's happy and contented for what he has.

He's gorgeous. 

Inside and out .

Some people need to change. To accept that the world changes. Its not those people who do things which are " not  socially acceptable " that need to change for the "right things " 

The those narrow minded people who need to change their god.damned. fucking.mindset.

Things like this really hit home hard.

That Difficult?

Hi thr ! lok at mai 2 wives ! 8D 

K, I just wanna rant about something today ! Can chose not to read it if you dont want to LOL.  here goes !

Conversation 1:

other party: hello.

you: hey.

other party: how has your day been?

you: great. what about you?

other party: just fine.

Conversation 2:

other party: hello!

you: hey!

other party: how has your day been?

you: great! what about you?

other party: just fine ~

Conversation 3:

other party: hello!! :D

you: hey! :)

other party: how has your day been? :)

you: great! :D what about you?

other party: just fine ~ :)

honestly, which conversation would you wanna be in? for me, definitely the third one. 

is it that difficult to use smileys/any other punctuation besides DOTS?

it ain't even like i'm asking you to MURDER, ROB OR STEAL. i'm seriously fed up with people giving me COLD REPLIES, by cold, i mean DOTS. and it's not only 1 or 2 who does it, IT'S A FEW. and the most absurd part? THEY STARTED THE BLOODY CONVERSATION. seriously? why start a convo when you're not interesting in talking to me?  Maybe its just the way you talk normally. But still. it sounds rude. 

and here, i'm not even talking bout situations where the other party's pissed/recounting something sad/talking bout something really serious. NO. just a NORMAL CONVERSATION. you wanna know how i feel when i get such replies? 

other party: hello.

*ooo what a surprise!*

me: hey!! :)

other party: so, how has your day been?

me: great!! :D what about you? :)

other party: just fine.

*what. the. fuck.i feel like a retard*

me: ohhh okay :)

other party: yup. haha.

*why the fuck dyou still bother replying?*

those in **, are my thoughts. see, i'm not even asking you to fake a smile. if you are unhappy, TELL ME. don't just give me those cold replies and make me think you're menopausal or have some attitude problem. you can't expect me to guess what's wrong when you keep your mouth shut. 

and then slow replies

you need 30 minutes to reply ONE text? seriously? d'you have some muscle issue? some disorder? you need to read a text for 30 minutes then you know what to reply? or d'you need 30 minutes to type one message out? well then let me tell you, MY GRANDMA REPLIES FASTER THAN YOU DO. if you're busy, TELL ME. it's not like i'm gonna flare up just because you're busy and can't reply my texts fast.  This especially happens with buyers. Is it really that difficult to just reply one text of " yes we are meeting today or no we are not ?

Sometimes, i have to wait until a few hours before the actual meetup before you reply . and after that ? wow ! 30 mins after the actual meeting time u reply again ! ._.

these SMALL details, makes a HUGE difference. you have no idea how one simple message can make and/or ruin someone's day. think about it.

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SHUT. THE FUCK. UP.
I HATE KPOP. AND I DONT INTEND TO STARE AT IT AS I SCROLL DOWN MY FACEBOOK NEWS FEED.
fuckplastic. 

Its Reality

I stayed because I trusted you when you said you'd come back sober . My mistake . My mistake .
I was a fool. This is the what ? 6th time ? I'm sorry . I'm stupid .

I know what it really means to be scared now . Even with loud music blasting into my ear. I cant block out the hallucinations of you calling me . It's scary. It's fucking scary. I'm scared ok. Im still a kid . I don't know what your world is like .
They say when someone is drunk their true feelings reveal themselves . Guess it's true. you really want me to be gone then ? It's easy to grant that you know ? Is it what you truly desire ? I can help you with that .
I feel useless . And it hurts . Alot. I'm fragile ok. I ain't strong . I can't keep up with this charade . I can't do this anymore . It sounds cheesy. Sounds fake . But it's the truth . How different I really may be. How jaded I really am . I can't describe it . I want it to end . I want it to end . Now that I really think about it . The reason I love my pillow so much is that it's always been there . Even though it's not real . It's always been there .

Adults

Okay seriously, just because you're older and 'seen the world' more than i have, doesn't mean you're right about every single thing okay. You're still human and you still make mistakes. Just because you're older than me, that doesn't give you the right to tell me to do this or that just to make you happy just to please you, if you can't do the same for me. This is very simple, RESPECT. If you don't give it, how do you think you'll get it? By running my life, by making decisions for me, by throwing your weight around my life? No way. That'll just make me hate you even more, you know that?

And we are all one and the same. We have feelings, expectations and most of all, temptations like all of you. So start treating us like humans.

RantRantRantRantRant

Why wont you ?

Sometimes I really dont get it why some people dont know how to fucking think before they open their mouths to shoot it off. Do you think that you are superior to the rest? Who are you to judge?
Who are you to even have the right to live her.
First, a friend comes over to my house, and straight out when she going into my room out of earshot, you start telling me how terrible friends are and how not to trust them, well let me tell you. I trust them.. I trust them with my life. I believe that after my parents and FEW relatives, they are the people to turn to when i have family problems or need to turn to for a shoulder to lean on. I believe that even if they cant help much, they will be there to support and help you through it. If I dont trust them, who do i turn to? YOU? The one who only thinks of themselves and is so selfish ? Hey, EXCUSE MY FUCKING ASSHOLE. You didn;t even remember my mothers birthday, SHE'S YOUR OWN FUCKING DAUGHTER.  Do you think i give a flying fuck if you have what? 4? 5 ? 6? children? I DONT. I DONT CARE. That just goes to show how much of a slut you are. Dont judge someone before you know them. Yes, im sure that im not the most successful person , nor the most hardworking or talented. heck, i might be a failure. But hey, even someone like me is able to tell right from wrong. I've made mistakes , and i've learnt from them. I dont wantt to grow up to become someone that everyone hates or someone that is unreliable. but thats getting out of point. the thing is, yea, a friend of mine comes to my house. MY HOUSE OK. MY . FUCKING. HOUSE. your just a free loader that is staying with us until your damned house is fixed . you've been here for ho long? You were soupossed to be here for 3 weeks.  you've overstayed your welcome. you've been freeloading for more then 3 weeks.... my friend comes alone for one day , one god forsaken day. And you accuse her of wasting water, wasting food, taking free things? stealing things, AND WORST OF ALL. HURTING ME? i got hurt because i was clumsy.
well, what right do you have to say anything about that? what fucking right do you have. why do you deserve to be able to say this? YOU FUCKING DONT. you've been freeloading for 3 weeks. and a friend who only used water to wash her paint brush. ate food because i asked to cook it, came only because I asked for help, gets accused? if you want to blame someone just blame me. Why cant you learn? why cant you get any retribution? Why are you living a happy life when you deserve so much worse? why cant karma get back to you? yes , you are family. but I dont want a fucking family member that is like this. I wont be proud to say " Yes. Thats my Grandmother ! (:" NO. I DONT FUCKING WANT YOU IN MY FAMILY. I love my other grand mother so much better, she's openminded. She's sweet. She's loving. SHE KNOWS HOW TO APPRECIATE WHAT SHE'S GIVEN . she once told me that she's so satisfied with the life she has now. and hey, i agree. she deserves it . I really look up to her. to be able to be so open mined. have parties with relatives and friends. be happy every single day of the month, year. While you? what do you get? waking up at 5 am, calling others to cook for you and then complain about it.
That reminds me. A long time ago, my father brought you out for sharks fin, it cost $70 a bowl. A FUCKING BOWL OK. not a pot. A BOWL. 70$ is alot. its all because my father thought that you'd appreciate.. by being a good son in law. by giving you the best.  I remember what you said.  " Bo ho jiak " if i wrote it right, basically it means " not nice"
FUCKING. EXCUSE ME. what kind of response is that. someone actually bought you some expensive food.  and all you can do is complain that its not nice. do you even know how to appreciate? why should you be able to enjoy luxuries? I can just get you garbage leftovers and maybe you'll ay that it tastes good. because hey. thats all that your worth.

Now after that, you dare to accuse my maid of so many things. lets get things straight first. yes, i think that im rather foolish. I trust too easily.  But I believe that my maid, is really a nice and sweet person. for my birthday, she bought be such a big present and wrote such a nice card although her english isn't good. I can tell that she poured her heart into it. and you? " I have no money" hahahahhahahha. ahhaha. drop the fucking act. you didn;t even remember. i dont care. i dont care if you dont remember. i forget birthdays as well. but if i know that one of my family member's birthday is here. i will at least try to get a present. or at least wish him/her happy birthday. its the basic courtesy I can give to someone as its their damned birthday. I dont want a present. All I want is a happy birthday. is that too much? maybe not for me.  You didn't even give your own daughter a birthday wish.  what kind of mother are you? maybe this is why my mum dotes on me so much. because she has beeen there and knows how it feels like without a mum's love. shit. im getting a headache from thinking and crying. why am i even crying anyway. I think im crying for my maid, how badly she is treated. and for my friend. on how she got misjudged.
you accused her of sleeping with my mum's bf. that the worst thing. I can understand how hurt someone would feel from being accused like this . she's so hurt. she wants to quit the job. She must be a sensitive person.  Even if its just as a joke or what ever fuck. yo should never. ever. joke about something like this. THE FUCKING INSULT ONE WOULD FEEL FROM THIS . its to much to explain. mabye your the one who has been doing it? but nah. no one would want your old saggy pussy =A=.
You really just dont know how to shut up. and think.
This is the last straw. I cant do it anymore. I cant pretend to be nice.
I cant pretend to think you good.
I cant do it.
GTFO of my life.
I hope that you will really reflect.
You'll be forever alone.